Im Alright, Im Alright, I'm Alright, Im Fantastic......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcnRlaCvKhE

So. I'm Making friends. I have a date. I've unpacked EVERYTHING possible in my apartment. I've paid rent and the utilities bill. Leroy is making progress in the potty training department.  I'm doing pretty great. 

Still on the up and up.  There is A LOT that i have yet to do and a lot of growing and changing to do.  Many decisions i need to make--but i have time to pray and think and ponder--get confused and scared--then ponder more, then finally....I'll KNOW!   (Or something like that)

I'm excited for this weekend!  His name is Richard Tripp. We *apparently* had a moment at Chik-fil-a. Pretty stoked.

Anyways, life is good :)

I've Come To The Realization That.....

I deserve better.  I'm fine waiting for better to come along.  As Amazing as i think its been--it'll be even better.  I deserve better.  Each day i get a little bit stronger.  I don't need to wait for him--i'm done chasing him.  My closure comes from the decision I'VE made in my mind. Feels Good.

Also, my parents are coming. SO STINKIN EXCITED!!  I have some great surprises for them! I can't wait till friday. And then Saturday spending all day with my wonderful family, then sunday watching little Kolby Trey have his baby blessing. Precious.  These are the memories that make my life--couldn't ask for more. 

Goodnight, sweet dreams :)

Tonight, We Are Young!......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sv6dMFF_yts

So. Today is Valentines day. I didn't wake up to any cute texts, i don't have that special someone to send a sweet "i love you" text to----and that is OK!

Everyone makes such a big deal out of valentines day. They go out of the norm to do big and grand things.  Even when i'm married, i don't want it to be like that.  I want to show our love the other 364  days of the week. V-day can just be another nice dinner together followed by cuddling and falling asleep together--awe. 

So, in tradition of what i believe valentines day should be--im going to dinner at B Dubs with some really great friends.  One of which is one of my very best friends.  I'm going to have a great night with people i really care about.  Perfect celebration of the day if you ask me.

I read this quote earlier this morning that said, "Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek."  

I needed that. Oh how i needed that.  If i want change--i'm going to bring about change.  There is no point waiting for people or things to change when i have the full capability to change myself.  

Happy Valentines day :)

Sunday...

Today was how Sunday should be.

I went to church. I felt the spirit so strongly there.  Its not so bad going and sitting by myself--it was hard at first, but i never imagined that i would feel loved and at home so quickly.  I love my ward.

I came home and was going to read but then remembered i had a cake mix and so i should make cupcakes for the little one's at sister Ross' house tonight.  So i turned on MoTab Pandora and set to baking.  It was so hard every time i got cake batter on my hand not to lick it off, but alas! i was diligent in keeping my fast :)

The feeling was so good.  The apartment smelled of choclatey goodness, the sun was shining in on the living room, and the choir was singing hymns.  I did that.  I created that feeling in my own home, for myself.  Home truly is what you make it.  My heart was warm and happy.

Then i took some cupcakes to work for the poor fellas that have to work today.  I sat and chatted a little.  It was nice and relaxing.

Now i am home. I finished frosting the other cupcakes and now i'm going to read.  Then Yummy dinner at Kendra's and a nice relaxing night with a friend.

Point of this blog. I met with Bishop Walker.  He said he had been thinking about me--that's how it seems to go.  My bishops are always thinking about me and then they always give me such wonderful gifts.  That's exactly how today was.  Wonderful

I'm thankful that my Father in Heaven is concerned with me. I'm thankful that my life is significant to him. I'm thankful for his righteous servants and their obedience in order to receive revelation concerning me.  It's amazing how it all works.

Good Sunday. Happy Sunday. A Sunday kind of Sunday

So Good....

That's my life today. Not to brag or anything ;)

Work was really good.  It was such a nice day and i worked the drive through window all day--it was beautiful.

After work i took a walk around down town Idaho Falls and then sat on a bench, watched the sun set and listened to the rushing water of the falls--Then a homeless man came and asked me if i had any spare cigarettes.  I politely said no and then hurried home.

Alicia and the kids came and picked me up and we went to watch a high school game that Merrill was reffing. I saw my old boss James there--that was cool.  The game was nice, kids got hurt, parents were heated. Nothing to note worthy.

Then i got dropped off and set out for Winco.  My original intention was just to get some sushi--yum!  I called Celeste and talked to her about her trip to Greece--Jealous!!!  and then i was telling her my sob story about loving pistachio ice cream but only being able to get it in Rexburg--then i found it!! Ben and Jerry's saved my life!  So then we joked and laughed about how i was going to go home and eat ice cream while watching sappy love movies--awesome! It was a silly conversation but i loved it and i miss her so much.  I left the store with rolls, jalapeno chips, sushi, and sparkling cider. Winning!

It was a good day.  Nothing happened--but it was such a good day. 

I'm happy, and that feels so wonderful :)

Curious...

When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you...